♥ Friday, November 30, 2007
@11:37 AM
己经好远了退也有一点累了我们都不知道路有多远走到何时才歇一歇不如就现在吧让我们都停下但是在休息后我们还不知道继续走的理由雨都停了天都亮了我们还不懂这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方是要持续仍旧珍惜还是回到原地如今此刻的我的确是有一点疲倦One day after our suppose to be eleven month,29th was suppose to be something sweet,but ytd was a mentally torture.do u know how much i miss you, ytd jacinta told me what u told her, maybe you don't know your words is killing me,but i dont mean to scold you.i've tried so many ways to numb myself,so many silly things to forget about you.but i really can't. Clubbing let me forget abt u for a moment, the music allowed me to fade u away in my thoughts but after everything stop your missing is killing me.Davien & everybody asked me to moved on with my life, but how am i suppose to moved on without crying, where are you? do you still really love me? do u still miss me. you made me lost my ways,u made me forget about myself. I doing alot of things hurting myself,in the end im the one suffuring,but do u know? I know you won't come back anymore,but your shadows is still following me. i thought i can be some strong girl, move on. but im suck a weak ass. everynight before bed,i will hold on to my tears.i really cant take it anymore.Jacinta gave me hell scolding today, somehow her words really hurt me alot,'' you'r just being a pathetic, all u want is people to pity you.'' ya,i want you to pity me but why dont you,whyyyyyyy. If one day i manged to throw away your shadow, will be the day i say goodbye. someone please pick me can? the heartache is not over,i can't push u aside,the longlast temptation is killing me suicide.i still feel your touch in my dreams,forget pls my mistake, forgive me people. i swear i will live for the better. When i know i can't feel your love anymore,this is called goodbye. The book is on fire, we don't need no mothers but the modafuckers burn.awww,so techno this few days.God please hear my crying,save me from hell. Tempation is leading me to suicide.
♥ Wednesday, November 28, 2007
@10:56 AM
soooooooooooo lazy to blog, okay plush night was fun ytd. i swear (: manda and guys are hot.Okay and bloody dennis do u have to go lower then me, whatever u this kuku. choon seng kenrick manda and this hot guy was shuffling, wannbe me trying to follow.HAHS. so sorry to got lionel and friends into troubles.Manda,so sorry that i've to go,bth the pain uh. :(. and Elisa is an ass, andd er, mataku or masaki dontknow what name luh forget HAH, his a great entertainer.Elisa u have fake big eyes, take out luh., stupid boy. wanna wack me again right. hohohooho. went home today at 6plus? dontknow, so tired but so fun. was suppose to meet j for a drink,but he fall asleep,think i kept him waiting for too long.kayson i bet u are soooo happy now right, your party is awsome luh, so rem my fish & co. ytd manda and i was like bumping this bunch of crazy girls, kenrick & click also bth. yuck, and another stupid wannabe grinder,u sucks gal, and u have nothing to show. LALA, half way this so funny man came over for number,duh crazy. i love shuffle boys only.manda missing his boy lastnight, shouting his name siol.oh ya elisa said gal cannot say sial, then siol can? Jacinta mak, i feel like wacking u, i swear u make me so pissed, but somehow i still LOVEU.HA HA ff it. went out with cassssssssandra today, bodoh she wait for me at wrong place,brought jo along for a shave. GROOMING LA DEY, doggy look so ugly now i swear. felix Tan finally u are back, welcome back ass. (: &&&&& iwanna tattoo leh, but scare pain luh. weak seh haha. whatever i forgot abt being pain. you numb me inside out boy,im throwing away your shadow. Im so sorry jacinta i can't be like what u want me to be, i walk along with my mistakes, but i look back with revenge. suay it away. I got to know nana, his a kaykan bodoh jiao wei boy. NACCHY.(: Lawwwwwwwwwwwww,tml go sing k leh bodoh jacinta. answer my call can bitch.Now lechelle go scandal & kinky.
♥ Saturday, November 24, 2007
@2:06 AM
now,finally u mention im not ya gf anymore.alright its my fault to make u suffered at first.but now im begging for a chance and u dont borther.must i have to knee down and fall for u.whatever is it, i know everything is over.It all started from me, i blamed no one. thou i make mistakes, but no one is perfect. mistakes i made is a revenge to u. But i was wrong, i've lost u. Now you'r gone.saying u still love me,i take it as a lie,i know broken heart can never be mend together.I wont force you. i've aready throw my pride away asking u to come back, but since your heart is dead,i will just kill u for once.goodbye 29th.Goodbye tiew yin xin.gd'bye 10mths. goodbye to love,thou u are no longer mine,but no one can replace me.i will make u regert,doing things which u think it will kill you even more.goodnight
♥ Thursday, November 22, 2007
@12:09 AM
woke up at 1.00pm,so pig right? Don't know why these few days so hard to get into sleep.so hard to wake up.so easy to tears.oh peo tell me why am i getting so emo.HAH,today met rahmah,xiao lin weiboon & yuan to daniel house.Brought Jojo along too,kai kai saw jo sooo happy,both playing like dog haha.well, daniel's family gave me a very warm feeling,as in a very nice you see.Oh ya daniel,the way u introduce ya product & the way how confident you are really appear another you.If wed free will be likely going down to clark q with u & lin:) Hello manda gf' thanks for all the concern, love you! These few days really very tied up by emotional feelings but soon it will fade away right? OMG i fucking need a job, the best is work at clark q, night life baby woooo.. wei boon & yuan got their job at CQ so good! lala nvm, u both working there i go there club HAHA. wei boon ya Hu pei hua never fail to make me laugh! (:lazy to write,NIGHT!
♥ Wednesday, November 21, 2007
@12:30 AM
okay,im back blogging again.HAH.i forgot my blog add,password and stuffs.Too bad, i got it all back in my head again.well soooooo many things to mention, so many things to complaint,so many people to miss,so many tears to cry,so many heartbreakers.so so many.Today was great!you see after a hardcore crying last night,i managed to smile today (: rahmah bestie cheer my day with laugher & some booshit chinese speaking,girl i love u. Tears,can you tell me why are u rolling down my cheek before bed! come on, im sad.I do have people to talk to,but some idiots act like they do concern but indeed, HELLO u are a faker.stop asking like you care,when u bloody don't my dear.Its my mistake,to have let you go.Now i want you back,but somehow time is telling me too late.nvm,i shall tears like no tomorrow again.you people tell me to move on and learn my mistake,but you see is not easy okay.Ya whatever i agree with you im one whom can't stand up once i fall, what more about heartbreak now? why i get so jealous easily now? & why am i so afraid to be left behind now.why am i crying like f* & hoping someone around to see me cry? Dont tell me about going scandal & kinky around anymore,i can't afford.I met you 2days ago,while waiting for your bus, u sang a song & telling me is about us.well do u know how sad am i? come on,the lycris you sang is breaking my heart.yesterday i went over to town,towning,jobs is an excuse.i miss you,i wanna see you.And what? u took off the ring and where did u placed it.Now every movement of yours is killing me if you don't know. every move u made kept me thinking,lead me to crying.i can't get over u! i want you back.Do u know everynight i break down under my blanket,i can't even cry out loud, mum's is sleeping with me everynight.do you know the feeling when u are sad & you have to hold back everything including your tears? Do u know the feeling being neglected.Im yearning back for everything,yearning back for u.Now i asked you. am i still your gf, you told me you don't know.Then what am i to you now.i won't forget that night how mum wack me, and how much i need you by myside. waiting for your smses, waiting for your reply. If i had the courage, i would had aready leave this world. Im not getting emo. Im sercious.
