♥ Wednesday, November 21, 2007
@12:30 AM
okay,im back blogging again.HAH.i forgot my blog add,password and stuffs.Too bad, i got it all back in my head again.well soooooo many things to mention, so many things to complaint,so many people to miss,so many tears to cry,so many heartbreakers.so so many.Today was great!you see after a hardcore crying last night,i managed to smile today (: rahmah bestie cheer my day with laugher & some booshit chinese speaking,girl i love u. Tears,can you tell me why are u rolling down my cheek before bed! come on, im sad.I do have people to talk to,but some idiots act like they do concern but indeed, HELLO u are a faker.stop asking like you care,when u bloody don't my dear.Its my mistake,to have let you go.Now i want you back,but somehow time is telling me too late.nvm,i shall tears like no tomorrow again.you people tell me to move on and learn my mistake,but you see is not easy okay.Ya whatever i agree with you im one whom can't stand up once i fall, what more about heartbreak now? why i get so jealous easily now? & why am i so afraid to be left behind now.why am i crying like f* & hoping someone around to see me cry? Dont tell me about going scandal & kinky around anymore,i can't afford.I met you 2days ago,while waiting for your bus, u sang a song & telling me is about us.well do u know how sad am i? come on,the lycris you sang is breaking my heart.yesterday i went over to town,towning,jobs is an excuse.i miss you,i wanna see you.And what? u took off the ring and where did u placed it.Now every movement of yours is killing me if you don't know. every move u made kept me thinking,lead me to crying.i can't get over u! i want you back.Do u know everynight i break down under my blanket,i can't even cry out loud, mum's is sleeping with me everynight.do you know the feeling when u are sad & you have to hold back everything including your tears? Do u know the feeling being neglected.Im yearning back for everything,yearning back for u.Now i asked you. am i still your gf, you told me you don't know.Then what am i to you now.i won't forget that night how mum wack me, and how much i need you by myside. waiting for your smses, waiting for your reply. If i had the courage, i would had aready leave this world. Im not getting emo. Im sercious.
