♥ Friday, November 30, 2007
@11:37 AM
己经好远了退也有一点累了我们都不知道路有多远走到何时才歇一歇不如就现在吧让我们都停下但是在休息后我们还不知道继续走的理由雨都停了天都亮了我们还不懂这爱情路究竟带我们到什么地方是要持续仍旧珍惜还是回到原地如今此刻的我的确是有一点疲倦One day after our suppose to be eleven month,29th was suppose to be something sweet,but ytd was a mentally torture.do u know how much i miss you, ytd jacinta told me what u told her, maybe you don't know your words is killing me,but i dont mean to scold you.i've tried so many ways to numb myself,so many silly things to forget about you.but i really can't. Clubbing let me forget abt u for a moment, the music allowed me to fade u away in my thoughts but after everything stop your missing is killing me.Davien & everybody asked me to moved on with my life, but how am i suppose to moved on without crying, where are you? do you still really love me? do u still miss me. you made me lost my ways,u made me forget about myself. I doing alot of things hurting myself,in the end im the one suffuring,but do u know? I know you won't come back anymore,but your shadows is still following me. i thought i can be some strong girl, move on. but im suck a weak ass. everynight before bed,i will hold on to my tears.i really cant take it anymore.Jacinta gave me hell scolding today, somehow her words really hurt me alot,'' you'r just being a pathetic, all u want is people to pity you.'' ya,i want you to pity me but why dont you,whyyyyyyy. If one day i manged to throw away your shadow, will be the day i say goodbye. someone please pick me can? the heartache is not over,i can't push u aside,the longlast temptation is killing me suicide.i still feel your touch in my dreams,forget pls my mistake, forgive me people. i swear i will live for the better. When i know i can't feel your love anymore,this is called goodbye. The book is on fire, we don't need no mothers but the modafuckers burn.awww,so techno this few days.God please hear my crying,save me from hell. Tempation is leading me to suicide.
