♥ Thursday, December 6, 2007
@10:14 AM
raining..im down with fever. :( i felt so unwanted,felt so left out. why is everyone changing. You call this retribution or u call this karma? After so many day of crying,i did not got numb & stop, eventually i got more sad. everyone ignoring me, advoiding me. why? Im so sick, so tired of tears, tell me how should i end it. will u still cry for me, will u still hold me back if i decide to leave this place.im really suffering like hell. why cant you see, dont tell me you dont have to show how your feelings , showing u now im living like shit. how wish i can get bang by car when i cross the road, can be whatever when i want,kill me instead im tired. i dont want to sucide, let me be nature so you won't blame me for ending up my life, God, cursing my own soul is not a sin isn't it,you see im so despo to end everything with a smile,but i really can't. hear me will you? Israel,i dont mind throwing everything away for u including pride, i just need you badly. come back before im gone .
